Silenced

mildreflections:

I was silenced when I realized,

Screams in this world vanquish

Faster than candles against winds.

Quietened,

When it dawned upon me

That to stop a fight,

Means to sometimes take a hit.

Stymied,

When I grew up to understand

That win or lose doesn’t matter was just a myth.

And consolation prizes were stuff of fairy tales.

Stopped,

When I realized it took longer runs to achieve dreams,

And shorter to just be,

What the world wants me to be.

And I gave up after a single cry,

Because there was never time,

For second tries.

I choked on truths,

Because lies were easier to swallow.

And did it until,

They were heavy enough,

And I was no longer hollow.

I forgot to laugh,

Because sorrow was more comforting.

And put up walls,

Because I was told,

People could be destructive.

Became cold,

Because love was too difficult.

And easy relationships,

Was hoping for miracles.

So you see,

I was not always a silent person.

The end of my voice came,

With every little breakthrough in life.

When I realized the infinite pains

Of an enormous universe,

And then reflected upon my minute size.

                                 – Mild Reflections

Thanks you @vagabondprophet for prompting @josy57 and I with ‘at the end of your voice’. I hope you this is fine.