Open Heart Surgery

The surgical blade

The drape that was laid

Upon skin built up for years.

Flat on your back

Ragged breath gone slack

Clamp down the mask

Begin the task.

The harm always starts

Before the healing can,

The cracking of ribs

The loss of blood.

If this is you

Going under the knife,

Remember some go a lifetime

With nobody seeing their heart,

For the struggling pump that it is

Trying to bale out a boat

Under constant downpour.

– Vagabond Prophet

Shaken awake by sun rays

Piercing curtains piercing dreams

As the balloon pops to remind me

Life is on its way.

Rushing without sirens

Some emergencies announce themselves

When your stomach enters the room

Before your tongue.

Now in the recycled air

Of the bloodless lair

Where the sterile everything

Instructed my body

How to be itself.

All the faces went blank

When the pushing yielded little

And the little one turned.

Drapes pulled up

So I couldn’t see

Them cut into me,

Poorly upholstered tragedy.

I heard no cry for my breast

I saw no quivering lip,

Now screaming in his stead

I grabbed the knife and threatened

Them to uphold the life

I’d so carefully procured.

Code white bled into pink

And tiny black blankets

Wheel away my dreams.

Thoughts of different futures

Feel like pulling out sutures

From the scar that I still bare.

– Vagabond Prophet

– I heard over the intercom system a code white in the OR, and then right afterwards a code pink in the OR. There are only so many procedures with a conscious patient. This is what my brain did to fill in the gaps of my knowledge.

Armed Guards

Shipwrecked on a shore

Of feral condemnation

From every corner of the nation,

Combing every grain of sand

To find some remnant

Of your past life.

They think you’re unconscious

But you hear the whispers,

“Why are we bothering,

Can’t we let him slip

Through the cracks of our care?

Should we slip some

Intravenous fear to finish him off?”

I know not why you fill that bed

Or why your breach of protocol

Has the hallway outside

Filled with more armed guards

Then I can count on one hand.

The endlessness

Of your listlessness

And your breathlessness

That keeps draughting

Maskful after maskful

Of precious oxygen.

The threat of whip and lash

If you manage to leave

In cuffs rather than a bag.

There is value in sweat

And valour in tears,

Do you know these things?

Or only preyed upon that fact?

I don’t know

I can’t know.

I know that

The words tied to your name

Are not yet set in stone

Not carved into your bone.

The consequence

Of confidence

Is responsibility,

Is it a mantle

You’re prepared for?

Is this even your fault?

Are you one of those sad ones

Born with a convoluted tubule

Connecting ear to brain

Always twisting the truth,

Like a game of telephone

The message constantly misshapen.

Were lies only passed through your hands,

But licking all those envelopes

Your tongue stuck

To the roof of your mouth

Making truthful speech impossible?

Now having cried so many tears

The sea mistakes you

For part of itself

And heeds not your cries for help.

Though what they say could be true

That you released quivering bullets

From a quaking hand,

Don’t let the ticking of the clock

Be the author of your days.

Remember when good news

Wears camouflage

And bad news wears neon

That I’d still lend an ear.

After this one simple question,

If you could relive your life

Would you ruin it

In a brand new way?

These are questions we share

For ourselves, for our souls.

What else do we share?

Do we share a blood type?

Could your A+’s

Meet my O-’s

And make a different alphabet,

Where the words tied to your name

Don’t anchor you the same?

– Vagabond Prophet

Thank you so much @josy57 for prompting me with “The words tied to your name.” 

More hospital related poetry for everybody, or as I like to call it…

Antiseptic verse

Enjoy.

Return to Sender

I opened the letter as it arrived

Hoping it would buoy her spirits

And diminish the long shadows ahead

Only to find the screen displaying

A line flatter than a prairie.

The code blue was issued

And skilled men and women

Sprang into action

Making the bed springs squeak

Their emergency made plain.

I should be used to this by now,

Death is part of every life,

Irony is cruel sometimes,

Just like the irony of a body bag

That insists on sterile packaging.

As though the dead would complain

About the cleanliness of

Their final sleep.

The medicine we needed

Not found in this world,

Now here we are hoping

She can still find it somehow

The fountains of joy

And streams of love

No doctor can prescribe.

I am sorry but I must

Return this to sender

For the woman in my care

Has died this afternoon.

A letter from one heart

To another no longer beating.

– Vagabond Prophet

– Thanks @josy57 for the prompt “The medicine we need”